2009 I started my 4th year of teaching. I was going on my 2nd year in 2nd grade & absolutely CHERISHED my school. I had the absolute best co-workers, a principal you can only dream of & a community that felt like family instead of a job. My students were a different story, they were pretty much the worst class I had ever taught aside from about 7 students. Seriously – you could ask any of the teachers & they’d tell you.
On November 23, 2009, Jesse’s birthday, we found out I was pregnant….again. Cohen was just 7 months old & I cried. I felt guilty that I was pregnant again so soon. I felt like I was robbing Cohen of getting that 1-on-1 attention with us because he’d be sharing our little family at just 15 months old. I hadn’t lost my baby weight & I knew Jesse would be deploying again very soon and I’d be a “single mom” while working full time & pregnant. Let’s just say it took a good 2 weeks for me to come around…..that and Jesse laying in to me – telling me what a blessing this little baby would be & that I needed to just stop it. Good man that husband of mine is 
{and i hope you read that in a yoda voice}
The winter came, my class was still horrible but things were good. We took a family trip to Florida for Christmas to spend with my inlaws – our last little ‘hoorah’ before becoming a family of 4. Jesse left in February for his deployment – I was about 16/17wks along. While Jesse was gone we found out that we’d be moving to the UK that fall & I wouldn’t be returning to my lovely school – I’d become a SAHM in jolly ol’ England. So our life events were as following: Pregnant, Cohen turned 1, Deployment, Baby #2 due, Quit job teaching, move across the ocean, become a SAHM.Whoa.
Just before Lucas’ arrival I was so caught up with the return of Jesse that I didn’t really panic. Jesse returned just 2 weeks before I had Lucas. I wasn’t super concerned about what kind of Mom I would be – how I would handle it – or if I would “stress” out. I knew we had so many other ‘things’ to worry about that honestly it just didn’t really phase me.
After Lucas was born, he was the dream baby. Slept well, nursed well & hardly EVER cried. That kid was so quiet that EVERYONE – I’m talking every.one would mention how they would forget he was even in the room because he was just THAT good. We were blessed. Then we moved to the UK and the rest is history.
My whole point in all of this is that this time around, I’m a tad nervous. I know I could handle one baby. When we thought it was just a #3 I was good. Yeah things could get a little hard & it would be rough with 3 kids 3 & under – but when we learned that there would be a #3 AND a #4 I panicked. I still panic on occasion.
I know I will be a good Mom. I know I will be able to juggle it. I know it will all work out because God is in complete control. Yet sometimes, that doubt creeps in & I wonder how in the WORLD this will work?? How will I be able to be the Mom & Wife I want to be while doing all of these other things?! I mean, I’m going to have 4 kids 3 & under!
These life changes are going to be hard, but I know with lots of prayer & possibly tears, we’ll get through it.
xoxo
You will do great! you are one strong lady!!
I remind myself all the time that if we couldn’t do it, we wouldn’t have been given the chance.
You guys first year or so sounds like ours. We got married in April, Josh left for training in May AND we found out we were having Noah, moved to Florida in June and Noah was born in October. Hang in there mama. You can do it!
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I love that necklace! And yes, you will do great…but as a mom of four, I must tell you. Sometimes “great” is laying on the couch while the kids play on the floor or play in the tupperware cupboard
And sometimes great is having the basics done for that day, and no extras. I’ve struggled with pinterest making me feel like a terrible mother for not doing all of the extras sometimes…but they are fed, clothed, and have lots of attention, so I think we’re ok!
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God bless all of you!
I needed this post. I don’t have 4 kids that were all unexpected but even just Elijah being a little unexpected and other life changes that have happened I needed this reminder that it will all be okay with lots of hope and prayers. Thank you so much for the reminder!
Sending you lots of hugs <3 Everything will work out, you are an amazing mama, and wife, God must have thought you had just that much more love to share, so he blessed you with two more babies
. You will always have a support network here in bloggy land!
You will because God only gives you what you can handle and he obviously deemed you worthy of being a mommy of twins!! Can’t wait to meet the babies, you’re gonna be great!
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I’ve missed reading your blog! I read a few years ago and loved it and then I’m not sure what happened! Maybe it what when GFC stopped doing WordPress? I’m not sure. But I missed it and I am so happy to be following again!! By the way, where is your necklace from? I LOVE it!! Seriuos kudos to you Mama for doing 4!! I have no idea how i would!